May 8th, 2008

Dear Blog,

Well, day 2 of blogging and I'm not bored yet. How about you? Want to hear about how much I have wanted to throw up all day? Can't though. Must keep the meds down. Are we having fun yet?

Tobin, my angel of a nurse from the Positive Care Clinic says to take it one day at a time, and if you can't do that then one hour at a time. Today I am taking it one minute at a time.

My friend Pat says my editing is terrible. He is right of course, but I think it gives my work character. However, I am trying.

Subject for today; Who is blog. I am trying to decide if I am writing to everyone, to someone or to myself (cause I so love the sound of my own thoughts). So, in the end I have decided that Blog is an entity unto itself. Sort of like Shrek. Only I think Blog is a big squishy sea creature that rises out of the water sometimes when I go there to meditate. I think it is a he, although I can't be sure. Anyway, he has big huge liquid eyes the size of dinner plates and he can sit half in and half out of the water when he wishes. He makes sympathetic clucky noises and when he feels like I have spent enough time feeling sorry for myself he goes back into the water with a big tail splash as he goes.

Its hard today as I am feeling very sick. The "how can I do this for 48 weeks" sort of sick. It doesn't matter that the sun is wonderful or that my tulips are blooming or that this Sunday is Mothers day. All I can think of is how am I going to get through Mothers Day?

I must remember that even if I feel like I would have to rally to die, each day on the Interferon is a day that the Hepatitus is not having a picnic in my liver. The disease is too busy fighting the treatment to picnic.

By the way, if anyone reading knows anyone with Hep C please feel free to pass this site along. It is such a lonely disease. It might help.

Ok Blog, go back to the ocean. I'm going to watch TV. Here's a kiss for your big wet nose.

sending love
gayle