Hi,
I know I have been gone a long time. I was walking through the shadow....... Since I last blogged I developed shingles , my liver is the size of a football and I have pneumonia in my left lung and when I went down to see the doctor on Tuesday I was told that my viral load had not disappeared by week 12 and so we stop.
You could have knocked me over with a feather. Or a brick. I think I'm still in shock.
The worst of it is that I blame myself for not beating the Hep C. Andre keeps telling methat I wasn't fighting the Hep C the Interferon was.
Sounds good in theory but I feel like I let everyone down. Andre says he never saw anyone fight harder in his life. Nice of him to say so.
So what now? Don't know. The Doc says there is a new treatment about 2 years out. If God is kind and I am good to my liver, perhaps I will still be here to try it.
I have no game plan, no idea what I am going to do with life or how to make plans
Ihave learned that you must treat everyday like your last.
I have learned that I can bear much more than I thought
I have learned how to recognize true friendship and to accept love with no strings attached
I have learned that I will never throw up oatmeal.
I have learned that I love to sleep
I have learned to shut up and listen more. I learned this from not having the energy to talk.
And I have learned to see animals in my bubble bath. Mostly bunnies but once I saw a moose.

I won't be gone so long next time. I guess there is still much to discuss
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